Struggle

It's funny I can remember the struggle. Lots of the self-help courses have you recognize and then think of ways to combat yourself. So life becomes a struggle against whatever that is. Some call it the reactive mind, Landmark calls them rackets and winning formulas. Whatever it is you learn tricks or methods to fight against this automatic reacting thingy in our brains that wants us to see everything as the same thing. So Jan has hair like Sally (who cheated on us) so we don't like Jan. But with many course you learn tricks to tell yourself the Jan and Sally are different, and you go through life always reminding and fighting against these thoughts. So it becomes a constant search with some new course to finally find the cure and find some peace. Well through some of the courses you can actually learn to delete the rackets and that part of the mind that sees everything as the same thing, and at that point you get freedom. So then the manic search for the right course disappears, and then there is real peace and life becomes a game and you learn to live life as a creative being who sees everything in life in aesthetic band, and everyday every minute becomes a self expression of that artistic (I don't mean drawing or painting, I mean simple as walking down the street or sitting on the couch) expression. And you want to become an example for others and really want to help people. Not just to give sympathy and to say "it's ok, it's hard on everyone" but to say it doesn't have to be hard and can actually be quite fun. Once you learn the tools of life and the responsibility those tools entail you then have to go out and do something. It''s hard to explain.